i knew Darina long ago , i was her best friend . Even though she was my best friend, i
was older than her by 2 years . since the day i met her , i already know i am going to spent
my whole life with her. and i promise myself that i will protect her and no one else
but me will be the one she loves.
*flashback*
(The Day we met.)
i was 13 then while she she probably 11 .
it was raining and i was walking to school . when it started to rain ,
since i am a guy , i dont really bring an umbrella . Even though Minhyuk always
told me to bring one . but this time round i did bring an umbrella to school. it was my first.
then , while i was walking , i was pushed by someone . that somene was a girl .
'mind if you share your umbrella with me ?' she asked me while wiping off the water from
'sure.' we held the umbrella together. and that was the first time we met.
So when i was having a guest appearance at Sukira . I was asked if there was anyone
i am in love with. i took this chance. i finally built up my whole courage ,and
confessed to her. it took me 7 years to finally said it but this time i wasnt
face to face with her so it was easier for me to say it .
i finally felt so relieve , it was like someone took a rock off my body . i felt
so light that i feel like flying. is this what people feel if they are in love?
it is such a nice feeling.. i dont even want this feeling to disappear. it was like
the whole world just stopped and it is just me and her on the other side.
so after the radio broadcasting. we were packing our stuff and was surrounded by
fans so i cant just ignore them and leave so i decided to sign some autographs
and maybe give them some fan service. then i saw hyukjae hyung leaving , i wanted
to say goodbye but he was in a rush.
the fans were off and we all bid goodbye . i told yonghwa heung that i need to
attend something important when actually i was planning to meet Darina . i wanted
to tell her i love her right in the eye. maybe she feels the same way as i do .
i cant miss the chance of mine , it is too risky. but i am willing to take it
because it was Darina and no one else.
but then , just as i walked out from the building. the smile no longer lingers
in my face. it was gone. i felt like the whole world was falling apart.
i saw right in front of my eyes. Darina and Hyukjae. What are they doing and why
is Hyukjae even with Darina at that moment?
in a few minutes they were shouting at each other and the next , Darina was crying.
what is happening?
i cant even hear a single thing , the next thing i know was that hyuk heung left
Darina there . ALONE and CRYING! what is happening . i am lost and confused.
so i took my chance and went up to Darina . i didnt even give her a chance to say
anything and just held her in my arms. it felt great but at that moment , all i
could think was i couldnt just leave and left her crying to herself. let alone in
the middle of the night.
then soon i realised that Darina was hugging me back, sobbing . i carress her head
and whispered to her 'dont worry, i'm here . everything will be fine."
we stayed like that for quite a long time before i realise that she was already
losing herself from my hold. before i could even wipe her tears away , she already
did . i was that close . but i was too late. my chance is gone.
'are you fine now ? ' i spoke softly to her while looking straight into her eyes.
'i am , dont worry . i will be ..' she doesnt even look at me . but she is still
sobbing.
i know i cant do anything , but i know one thing i can do right now is that ,
'come , follow me~' i grab her hands and lace her fingers into mine .
i brought her to the place where we first met . and the place where we always
share our little secrets together. a place where no one else knows. only the
both of us. i wanted to make her happy . it was the least i could do .
at least for know i can see her smiling . then i realise i was smiling too.
looking at her smile can just make my whole world shine . it is like enough
to make me die.
after a while , she gotten tired and slept at the corner of the bookcase.
i cant just leave her alone . i took off my jacket and lay it on top of
her and sat next to her and let her sleep on my shoulder. for her, i am
willing to do anything. it was such a nice feeling. a a feeling i will never
forget ..
then i whispered to her ,
'I Love You Darina ,' and i kissed her forehead. smiling . how i wish
she could hear it . but i know she had fallen asleep .
the girl i loved ,
the girl whom i met ,
the girl who i held hands with ,
the girl who was my everything ,
the girl who was there for me ,
the girl whom i will protect,
here with me now ,
my first love ,
and i will not let her go ,
even if i am taking such a high risk,
she is mine .
and i am making her mine.
saranghae...
-Kyuna13-
